Shall You Dance With Me?

This is a story of 1 girl..

When this girl feel so sad,she will going to the top of the hill...

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''I dont care!From this moment,u not my girlfriend anymore!''

Without she realized,her tears fall down from her beautiful eyes...

The man she most love in this world hurt her feeling..

Without wasting time,

She run to the top of the hill..

She cry n cry...

''Why u did this to me?Idiot!Do u know how much i love u?But why u play with my feeling?Why?''

Suddenly..

A handsome man suddenly appear in front of her..

She shocked when she see dat man..

''Oh dear,plz dont be afraid 2 me,i hear sum1 crying here so i go check it out.''

She still stare 2 dat man..

''Dont worry im not bad man also,hahahaha...''

Then she wrap her tears..

''Im sorry if im crying until im disturbing u..''

Dat handsome man just smiling..

He sit besides dat girl n see on the night sky..

The night sky full with stars n moonlight..

''If u dont mind can u tell me wat make u cry at here?Sum1 hurt u?''

Then dat girl answer..

''Yes,my boyfriend lie 2 me n play wit my feelings.Then he broke up with me..''

''Oh my god,dat man is really cruel.How dare he hurt a beautiful girl like u?''

''Naaa im not beautiful,but if he dont like me then he should not play wit my feeling..''

Dat man just silent...

Suddenly he stand up...

''My beautiful lady,shall u dance wit me?''

Said dat man while he give his hand 2 dat girl..

''Huh??Dance?''

''Yup,u really look so sad now,so i guess nothing wrong if i try 2 cheer u up,at least i can do sumthing 4 u..''

After a few minutes she silent,she give her hand n they start dancing..

They dancing in the beautiful night..

Moon n stars bcome witness..

Eve dat girl didnt know she dancing wit who now..

But deep in her heart she feel so calm n happy..

After an hour they dancing,they stand up near the tree..

''Oh gosshh i feel more better now,thanks a lot to u..''

''Its my pleasure,i hope u ok now..''

''Im ok now,tomorrow i will solve everything n start my day wit a smile..''

Dat man just silent again,then she stare 2 dat pity girl..

''Hey you..''

''Yup??Wats wrong?''

Suddenly dat man kiss her forehead..

So slowly...

N dat girl suprised...

''Wat..wat u do??''

''We never meet before,but i promise dat i will do anything 2 return ur smile..''

''Wat do u mean?''

''U smiling now but its fake,but u dont realized dat u really hav a sweet n gorgeous smile..n i will never let dat smile gone from ur sweet face..''

Dat girl blushing..

N suddenly her heart beat so fast..

''Its really late now,u shud go home.Ur parents will worry 2 u..''

Dat girl still smiling even she blushing now..

''I will.Tnx a lot.Can i meet u again n dance wit u?''

Dat man just smile..

''Im sure after this u will not dance wit me again..''

''Huh??''

''Naaa..nothing.Go home now.Ok?''

Dat girl quickly go from there..

But in heart she know dat she will meet dat guy again..

N yeah..

She forget 2 ask his name!

''Nevermind,i will meet him again,for surely if i come here..''

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Dat girl busy helping her mother make a breafast for her family..

While her little brother watch tv..

Then,her father come  living room n take the remote control on the table..

''Ohh gosshh father i want watch dat movie!''said the little brother..

''I want watch the news.Movie is not important..''

Father open the news n he shocked when watch the news..

''There is 1 high school man name Matt Edward was killed n his body founded near the small apartmen with 1 victim,a young high school girl.Police believe dat they doing sex while they was killed by murderer.If other people have any information about the victims and the murderer please call to the nearby police station..''

''Oh gossh!Dats terrible!Nowday teenager really lack with moral value!''The father said.

But dat girl..

She know the victims who was killed by dat murderer

Dat victim is a guy who have bcome her boyfriend before n the guy who hav hurt her feeling..

She cant believe 2 this..

Yesterday he broke up with dat guy..

N today he founded dead in embrassing way with other girl..

Suddenly she remember sumthing..

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''We never meet before,but i promise dat i will do anything 2 return ur smile..''

Oh God!It could be the man who she meet last night will kill Matt??

No wonder why he said at he will never meet me again??

Said dat girl in her heart..

She believe dat man who killed her ex-boyfriend..

She make decision 2 go to the top of the hill...

She waiting in 2 hours but she dont meet dat handsome man anymore..

Suddenly when she want 2 go home..

She found a hand-writing on the tree n she read it

''I will do anything just 2 see ur smile again.Look,u so sweet when u smile..smile 2 me please?''

Dat girl crying in front if dat tree..

''U kill Matt just bcoz want 2 see my smile.Now i will smile 4 u,just 4 u..forever..''

                                                    

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I Like Your Sandwich...

While im writing my diary...
Suddenly my cousin come to my room..
''Adek,mum make a sandwich for us.This is your favourite sandwich.Want some?''
I take the sandwich slowly from the plate..
Suddenly...
An idea come to my mind...
I open the new page of my black diary..
And start to write a story about Alberto and Farah...
My imagination start to fly again...
And again....
And the story from Madam Red's imagination is begin.....

After take her dinner,Farah rush to her room,open her laptop n she go open her MSN messenger..

''Alberto  D'eon is online''

She smile when see dat name is online..so they start 2 chat..

cuteprincess92:hey alberto^^

Alberto D'eon:hi,wats up??

cuteprincess92:how ur day??:D

Alberto D'eon:cool,n how about u,dear?is everything ok at there?

cuteprincess92:yup everything is fine here,u alredy finish working?

Alberto D'eon:Yes,my business is going well now.Just there is 1 of my client really make me damn headche..

cuterprincess92:really?wat he do 2 u?

Alberto D'eon:naaa just a small fight but still can handle it,now im so tired..

cuteprincess92:so u shud get some rest now..

Alberto D'eon:no way i want 2 stay wit u my cute friend:D:D

Farah smiling.Ohh goshh Alberto u so sweet...

cuteprincess92:stop it alberto u make me blushed aww:''>

Alberto D'eon:hahaha,i hope i can see it

cuterpincess92:u tired now rite so u shud rest,i hav tell u early u shud find wife so sum1 will take care of u..:p

Alberto just silent....

Then..

He typing again...

Alberto D'eon:U wanna know sumthing dear?

cuteprincess92:wats dat?

Alberto D'eon:b4 i know u,many pretty women around me,but all of them just want enjoy wit me no more than dat..

                       so firstly i think all girl r cheezy until i meet u,u really different from them n i guess u my first girl bcome

                       my bestfriend.N u r good muslim 2 i like when u wear scarf on ur head i mean u wear clothes properly

                       not like other bitch i know..

cuteprincess92:u so sweet alberto tnx a lot,u so nice:''>

Alberto D'eon:If i go 2 malaysia meet u n visit u,will u?

cuteprincess92:wat??

Alberto D'eon:Dont worry,just 1 day,if u dont want meet me alone,so let me go 2 ur house,i want 2 meet ur family

She thinking 4 a while..then she typing again..

cuteprincess92:ok u can,but my brother will take u from airport ok?

Alberto D'eon:Really?U serious?Tnx dear:-*

cuteprincess: ^^

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When Alberto arrived in KLIA,Farah's brother take him after Farah tell everything about her friend from Spain.

In the first time in his life,he feel a situation of having a family when he stay in Farah's house in village..

Farah's family treat him very nicely n he really comfortable with dat..

4 the first time in his life he hav wearing 'kain pelikat'  n baju melayu in night like other Malay man wear..

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Alberto sit in front of the house..

Suddenly Farah come 2 him n bring him a cup of hot coffee n sandwich..

''Hey Alberto..''

''Oh,Farah.What u bring on dat?''

''I bring some coffee n sandwich 4 u..i guess when u sit here u want 2 bite sumthing rite??''

Without he realized,his heart feel calm when he see Farah pour coffee 2 his cup nicely..

He didnt know wat dat feeling..

In 3 years they chating,this is first time they meet n he stay in Farah house..

He feel glad dat he meet a nice girl like Farah,not like other chic he meet in his country,Spain..

His hand take one slice of sandiwich on the plate..

N he eat it..

''Wow this is very delicious Farah..''

''Hahaha,its just a sandwich,all people can do it..''

''No im serious Farah this is the msot delicious sandwich i ever eat,n u know why?Bcoz my cutest friend make it 4 me..

Man who hav u is really lucky.U will be a good wife in future..''

All dat word honestly come from his heart..

''Tnx a lot im glad 2 hear dat from u,my friend.Im still hav 2 finish study first then i will think about marriage when i got

a good job.N u hav 2 find a good women 4 urself 2 ok??''

''Yes i will,Farah.U r my bestfriend.N tnx a lot again im really happy enjoy at here.''

''U can come here anytime,Alberto.My little sister,Idah seem like 2 talk wit u 2.''

''Im afraid dat after this i cant come here back.But we still can chat in MSN dont worry n i still can call u.''

''Why u said like dat?U hav reason u cant come back here?''

A big sigh come from his mouth..

''Yes,many reason i cant come here back n i cant stay a long time here..''

''Oh yeah u rite.U r businessman,so u must be busy wit ur work..''

''U rite..''

Suddenly,his phone ringing n he answer it in front of Farah..

''Hola(helo?)''

''Maestro Alberto, tenemos un problema aquí!!(Master Alberto,we have problem here!)''

''Cuál es el problema?(Whats the problem?)''

''Maestro, nuestro cliente, Fernández tratará de matar y que han enviado personal a su asesino a matar porque usted pensó en su casa now.They matar a Jack y Edward.I Supongo que esto debe ser sobre la droga y el pistolero que comprar con nosotros.(Master,our client, Fernandez try to kill u and he send his personal murderer 2 kill u because he thought dat u in ur house now.They kill Jack n Edward 2.I guess maybe this is because the drug n gunslinger he bought from us.)''

''Voy a regresar a España mañana, puede que se encargue de mí hasta que yo vuelva allí?(I will come back to Spain 2morrow,can u handle it 4 me until i come back?)''

''Por supuesto, amo y lo siento molestar a sus vacaciones(Of corse n im sorry disturbing ur vacation)''

Tut!

Alberto close his phone.

''Sumthing wrong Alberto?''said Farah,worry.

''No nothing,dont worry.My assistant calling me.U know so hard 4 me 2 leave this village.But tomorrow i hav 2 go back 2 Spain.So b4 i go,can u accompany me here.I want 2 stay wit u 4 a long time.''

''Sure,why not?I will be miss u when u go back 2 Spain.''

In Alberto's heart said

''I miss u more,Farah.''

They spend all night talking in front of Farah house.

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Farah n her brother,Hamzah send him 2 KLIA.

B4 Alberto go,suddenly Farah give him a white paper bag.

He feel weird n take dat paper bag from Farah's hand.

''What is this?''

''Sandwich 4 u,Alberto.I make this in early morning.U hav tell me b4 dat food in ur flight is not enough rite?If u still feel hungry,u can eat this sandwich.I make a lot 4 u.When u arrived there,get enough rest ok.U always work hard.If u continue do dat,u will fall sick again,''said Farah 2 remind her bestfriend.

Alberto just smiling.

''Thank u so much,my dearest friend.I really enjoy my time here with ur family.Oh by the way if u hav problem just call me ok?''

''I will.Hav a safe flight,Alberto.Take care urself.Good bye''

Alberto smiling n then he waving 2 Farah n her brother.

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When Alberto arrived in airport,his 2 bodyguard,his driver waiting n take him2 his BMW car.

In his way 2 home,his hand is still holding the tupperware full wit sandwich.

He smiling see on dat tupperware.

Suddenly,his car explode n bcoz of dat explode,his body burned scorched..

Now he know,this is a conspiracy 2 kill him.N he know this is must be planed by his assistant,Joe.

He alredy suspect about Joe b4 but this time he is so careless.

A drug n gunlisnger seller like him always die in worst way..he know dat..

Farah didnt ever know his real job n his real identity..

Alberto lay down on the road near his burned car..

He dont ever think about himself or his pain..

But Farah's face in his mind..

His hand holding the tupperware..

He said 2 himself..

''Farah,in these 3 year i alredy fall in love wit u.But if u be together wit me,u will always get danger n i dont want dat.If i know i will die today,i will tell my feeling 2 u b4 i go.Ahh bullshit im really regret now..Farah,i love u baby.I like ur sandwich..''

Slowly he close his eyes,n he die on the road wit the tupperware in his hand..

Many people come there 2 look him n sum of them try 2 help him..

Pranngg..!!!

1 glass fall down n broken on the floor while Farah wash the plate near the sink..

She shocked n then she want 2 clean up it..

But when she hold the fragments of the glass,her finger bleeding n suddenly she feel sumthing wrong..

''Alberto?''

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Adek,Dont Cry..Its Just A Vase...

While im try 2 find my things in store..

I found a broken old vase..

Im smiling..

That old vase is belong 2 mum..

She really love dat vase but im the 1 who broke it..

N then suddenly memory appear again in my mind...

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Prangg...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suddenly i stop running...

Oh no!Mum's vase!Its broken!

Sis Ranik n Sis Sumi,my 2 nanny bcome worry 2...

If mum angry she cant do anything...

N then mum come n see the vase...

''Who broke this vase!!???''

Sis Ranik n Sis Sumi try 2 help but they mouth is locked 2..

N im just keep quiet...

''Adek,why u broke this vase?I have told u many time dont run in house!Why u dont ever listen 2 me!!?''

Im start 2 cry..

She take the hanger n hit my leg wit it..

''Mum plz stop its hurt!''

''U know its hurt but why u still dont listen 2 me??!!''

Suddenly father come back from work n see me in dat time..

She stop my mum from hit me..

''Dats enough dont hit her...''

Mum stop,follow my father's order...

I go out 2 the swing near the mango trees besides the house...

Im sit on swing at there n still crying..

Suddenly father come 2 me...

''Adek,come in house now,go eat ok..''

''But mum still angry 2 me..how if she hit me again?''

Father come near me again,more near..

He hold my hand n pull me slowly from the swing..

''Dont cry again,its just a vase,if ur mum still angry about dat vase i will buy many vase 2 her ok?Now come with me we go eat,i hav 2 sleep n go back 2 work again..come..ur mum cook ur favourite chicken cooked with ketchup..''

At the last i go with him n wrap my tears..

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My gloomy eyes still look on the vase....

Father...

U always know how 2 make me happy...

I swear..

No man n no people can make me happy only with a simple words..

Only u can do it...

Love u father...

While Im Walking,I Heard A Song From The Secret Garden..

With the black diary on my hug...
Slowly im walking and walking...
My leg bring me to the somewhere near the jungle..

While im walking..
My tears still dont stop falling down..
In my heart said
''Why all of this happend??''
The scar on my body and my heart..
It become more worst than before..
Why i have to feel like this?
Why a promise make my feeling bleeding?
No one know...
Only God know about it..
Suddenly..
While im walking,
I saw a big gate near the jungle...
It opened..
Seem that big gate opened for me...
Someone whisper to my ears...
''The gate of secret garden is open now.It open,and awake,and alive''
Slowly i go through that gate...
And then i see a beautiful garden..
Its more beautiful than a garden that i always look..
Someone whisper to my ears again..
''This is the true heart of someone,only you have reach to this garden..''
''This secret garden is hidden and waiting for someone to come in..''
''Only for those people who have sacrifice their feeling for someone can enter this garden..''
''You the one who will make this garden always look beautiful..''
''Because you have reach to this garden..''
''If you look the right way,you will see that the whole world is a garden..''
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Im lying on the green field...
And the the azure light...
I feel the wind through my body...
But my body...
Its still feel so hurt...
With tears...
I just want to listen to that gorgeous music...
Slowly i close my eyes...
Without realized that a silver knight is staring me from the far..
With his white horse...

Dear Rain,Please Vanish Away My Feeling...

My daily routine is staring at the night sky..
But i dont know why..
I hope that rain will fall down today..
I just staring at my black diary...
With a gloomy eyes...

Dear diary,
All type of feeling is mix in my heart now..
I dont know what actually i feel..
But something that hurt my feeling..
Slowly it torn my heart..
This hurt feeling come again after once it killing me from inside..
I realized that no one in this world will need me instead..
I try all my best..
To create a smile on their face..
But their tears still fall down..
I cant make them happy...
This is suck..!!
I dont fullfill my duty...
And i know it right now..
Everyone dont need me either..
Even they need me..
I dont do anything to make they cheer up..
For a long time i dont ever care with my own feeling just to make sure other people around me..
Will happy even just for once..
Dear rain..
Please vanish away my feeling right now..
Like how you make my heart feel more better when u fall down..
And make the earth become wet...
Please make my body wet with it..
So nobody will see my tears...
From now on..
I know it very well..
I will never find my ''medicine''..
Will all this ''scar'' become a part of my body?
Will i become a reflection of heart feeling and turn become a girl?
Searching and searching the ''medicine''
Its really hurt me..
Its so hurt....
Hurt.....

Father's Last Word..

15 April 2007,11:45 am

Mum calling me....

''Adek,i want go 2 out first 2 buy food 4 ur father.Go 2 my room n take him now..''

As soon as possible i go 2 their room,n in dat time i sw him lay on the bed...

I see his body is very thin n his skin bcome more dark than b4..i feel want 2 cry but i know i cant cry in front of him..

He smile 2 me n said

''Adek,come here.Massage my leg please''

I come 2 him,sit near him n massage his leg..i saw his foot..

All his skin r peel,flake..

''Adek,why u staring on my foot??''

''Nothing father,i feel want 2 throw all dead skin on ur foot dats all''

''In dat case,go take nail cutters n throw all dead skin on it..''

I follow 2 his order,take nail cutters n cut all dead skin on his weak leg..

I cut it slowly..

''Adek,when ur PMR exam?''

''Im still not sure 4 it father.Sumthing wrong?''

''Im just asking,u hav 2 study hard from now Adek.PMR is very important and u hav 2 focus 2 ur mathematics subject.I know u dont hav problem with other subject but plz this time i want u pass with dat subject.''

I just see him with gloomy eyes...

''Insya allah,father i will...''

His disease make he sumtimes forget many things,but im really impressed dat he still worry 2 my important examination,PMR..

''Adek,i want u study hard n bcome a successful girl.I always said the same thing 2 u n make sure dat u remember 4 wat all thing i said.N dont forget ur pray n u other responsible 2 Allah.Every time u feel so down,go pray 2 Allah bcoz only Allah will always hear u.Many secret between us dat other people dont know n everything we discuss,u hav 2 solve it n find a way.Im always pray u,when im gone u take care 2 ur mum,study hard n if u fall in love with guy one day,plz choose a good guy 4 u.And important thing is dont forget ur pray,always pray dat u can success in ur academic n dont sleep 2 late again.''

I feel want 2 cry in dat time,so i said 2 him

''Father can i go 2 room 4 a while?I want 2 take my handphone n i will be back.''

Father said ''Yes,go take ur phone now..im waiting..''

I run 2 my room n im start crying..

Oh father...i know  n i always feel dat ur time is come but y u said sumthing like dat 2 me?

How dare u said like dat 2 me,father..how dare u...''

Im try 2 stop cry n wrap my tears...

I go in front of the mirror n make sure my eyes is normal..

Then i go down back 2 his room again..

He see my eyes,im afraid he know dat im crying..

Suddenly he smile..just a simple smile..

''Sand come 2 ur eyes again??''

''Yes father..'' Im lie 2 him...

''Go wash it,i hav eye drop on dat table..take it now..''

Im feel guilty now,he know im lie 2 him..

But i do his order..

''Adek..''

''Yes father...''

''U dont hav 2 cry next time ok.U r big girl alredy..''

Im just smile..

A fake smile actually...

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Father..

Im sorry..

Its alredy near 4 year u passed away n leave us..

But u always in my mind 24 hours..

Father..

U everything 2 me..

U r my father,my bestfriend,my superhero n my teacher..

Losing u is the big sadness in my life..

I just get ur love in 15 years until u close ur eyes...

But i cant blame fate n Allah love u so much..

Father..

If u ask wat my heart want in dat time,i want 2 hug u father..

But bcoz of ur bone cancer i cant touch u or u will feel so hurt..

I still remember dat 3 days b4 u passed away,tears always fall down from ur eyes..

When u hear im in hospital 3 days b4 u passed away...

Ur tears fall down without stop..

Actually im in pressure in dat time..

But i swear im in pressure not bcoz i cant join the camp but actually im so worry 2 u..

But no one understand wat in my heart..

Since u gone,my heart bcome like a stone..

Father..

Today i write this note on my blog..

I miss u so damn much..

I feel so down today..

N i need u..

But u nver wil be here...

My tears dont stop fall down when i write this..

Father,only pray i can giv 2 u..

4 my beloved father,Haji Dahali bin Haji Harun..

May ur soul rest in peace,father...

As ur daugther,Rafiqah binti Haji Dahali..

Im proud dat ur blood in my body...

Im feel so touched when all people still remember u n im proud of dat..

I swear father..

Even i dont hav anyone 2 help me stand up again like u did b4..

I will stand up by myself..

Im a reflection of hurt feeling turn bcome a girl who always try 2 find medicine 2 heal myself..

But in the end,i still dont find medicine 4 myself..

2 heal a big scar in my heart since u leave me...n it will nver heal 4ever

I love u father so much...te queiro...